I've been home with a sick kid for the week. It started Sunday when I was sick, I even called my sister to come get my kid because I was so bad. Then he got it. So we've been home, and I've been eating crap. Haven't gained anything but certainly have not been following the plan I'm supposed to follow. Or exercising. I know I need to clean my act up, to start actually following the primal eating, to do what I say I'm going to do, but it's quite hard. I'm not sure why it's so hard. Even HCG, why is doing a second round so hard when I know that the results are so amazing? And I have so much left still to lose.
So. I have a plan, but need to put a meal plan for the week down on paper. That is part of the plan, planning my meals Friday night with the flyers, then shopping Saturday and cooking/prepping on the weekend. So we're ready for the week. I'd like to do one extra meal a week so when I have weeks like this, where we are home and things are shot, we can still eat healthy things. And I hope that it will prepare me for days when I don't feel like cooking or something, I'll have a backup.
I also plan on doing Leslie 3 times a week, I'd prefer in the morning to get it over with, but it'll be hard. If I do one on the weekend, it can be a longer one, and the other two shorter ones during the week. Walking the dog and baby are also in the plans, and in a few more weeks, weekend bike rides with the kid. Toning will fit in as well, just not totally sure which ones I'll do, probably some Jari. Or possibly KCM. Maybe even the Firm, so you see my dilemma? :-) Too many workouts to choose from!
I will do another round of HCG, I am determined to make it work, 20 pounds at least, then the last 10 or so I can do a more conventional way if I need to. I'm sure if I had done something more conventional I'd be down some of that already, but I have a hard time with regular diets. So crazy me, I'll jump back on the HCG wagon and go for a round 2.
Off to plan... and make a grocery list.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Changes and Attempts
I've given up on the patches, they may work for some people but not for me. Heck the drops barely worked, I was taking twice what most people do on them. So I am back to drops, re-loaded sort of, and tomorrow start VLCD again. Again. AGAIN!! I am so ready to lose weight and stop with this start and stuff crap. It's annoying. I have 30 pounds to get off me here, that's no small order after all. That just gets me to healthy, and I still want to be a little into that. I am hopeful that going primal afterwards, and really HCG is basically primal as well (without the melba toast), will get me to my goals. I will try and deal with the hunger, and focus on the goal. I want so much to be thinner, to get into some nice little clothes and stop the jiggles.
I got all the DVD's I ordered on sale, I have so many to use now, different trainers, even one beginner kettlebell workout, I look forward to trying that one, one I get a kettlebell... I have a variety, but most of the cardio is Leslie, I do like her basic style, I don't have to think, don't have to learn fancy steps, don't need to really think when I do it, that is the best part really. And of course they work, you put as much into it as you want to. Walk, jog, whatever, just as long as you keep moving. I also prefer high rep low weight workouts, though I know the benefits of heavy weights, I just prefer the way my body responds to high rep workouts. When I did slim in 6 years ago, combined with some extra Leslie, I think I looked my best then. And my best then was not really the best I'd like to look. Make sense?
So I'm back on the drops, and tomorrow start losing again, I hope it doesn't take too long to get to 20 pounds. That is about when I am willing to consider stopping, but it will depends on how long it takes and how things are going. I will get to my 40 pounds goal by September for sure, that is many months to figure it out. Beyond that, we'll see what happens!
I got all the DVD's I ordered on sale, I have so many to use now, different trainers, even one beginner kettlebell workout, I look forward to trying that one, one I get a kettlebell... I have a variety, but most of the cardio is Leslie, I do like her basic style, I don't have to think, don't have to learn fancy steps, don't need to really think when I do it, that is the best part really. And of course they work, you put as much into it as you want to. Walk, jog, whatever, just as long as you keep moving. I also prefer high rep low weight workouts, though I know the benefits of heavy weights, I just prefer the way my body responds to high rep workouts. When I did slim in 6 years ago, combined with some extra Leslie, I think I looked my best then. And my best then was not really the best I'd like to look. Make sense?
So I'm back on the drops, and tomorrow start losing again, I hope it doesn't take too long to get to 20 pounds. That is about when I am willing to consider stopping, but it will depends on how long it takes and how things are going. I will get to my 40 pounds goal by September for sure, that is many months to figure it out. Beyond that, we'll see what happens!
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Loading
Oh my. I didn't load like this last time. I am so full! I am hoping this means I'm doing it right and it'll work, and I won't be hungry (I expect a bit of hunger the first couple days). I've had nuts, chocolate, chicken thighs cooked in coconut oil, a muffin, eggs and cheese, salmon/mayo salad. I've also had 3 coffee with lots of cream. And I have chips and dip in the kitchen to eat... though I'm so full I'm not sure I can... but I will do my best!
Tomorrow I start VLCD and have some stuff already cooked, though I will need a few more things to make on the weekend. I should be good for awhile. I am happy to get to the losing phase again, and to actually stick to it. I need to do this! My goal is 26 pounds from my last weight, which puts me right at "healthy". Honestly, 30 pounds would be fabulous but I only have 40 days lol. After that I plan to do primal/paleo and exercise to get the rest off. I'd ideally like to be about 125 or so in the end, though we'll see as I get closer. I do not think I'll need to do a third full round but who knows! Of course I also plan to have another baby so that will put some weight back on. My hope is that the primal/paleo eating will do well to keep my weight healthy while pregnant, and keep baby healthy, and help me stave off gestational diabetes, which I had last time. I hope to avoid it this time, as well as the pre-eclampsia I ended up with, though they never called it that, my blood pressure went up and I had to do a 24 hour urine test which led to me being induced and having my boy 2 weeks early. If I can avoid that this time I'd be very happy!
So my goals are clear, and I am ready to do this. I have a bit more to eat tonight I guess... lovely lol. Who ever thought I'd not want to eat!! Crazy. Oh well!! Hopefully it's a sign of the way I'll end up? I look forward to the next 6 weeks, seeing the scale go down, and then to eating some normal stuff and avoiding grains forever. And ever. Oh my. :-)
Tomorrow I start VLCD and have some stuff already cooked, though I will need a few more things to make on the weekend. I should be good for awhile. I am happy to get to the losing phase again, and to actually stick to it. I need to do this! My goal is 26 pounds from my last weight, which puts me right at "healthy". Honestly, 30 pounds would be fabulous but I only have 40 days lol. After that I plan to do primal/paleo and exercise to get the rest off. I'd ideally like to be about 125 or so in the end, though we'll see as I get closer. I do not think I'll need to do a third full round but who knows! Of course I also plan to have another baby so that will put some weight back on. My hope is that the primal/paleo eating will do well to keep my weight healthy while pregnant, and keep baby healthy, and help me stave off gestational diabetes, which I had last time. I hope to avoid it this time, as well as the pre-eclampsia I ended up with, though they never called it that, my blood pressure went up and I had to do a 24 hour urine test which led to me being induced and having my boy 2 weeks early. If I can avoid that this time I'd be very happy!
So my goals are clear, and I am ready to do this. I have a bit more to eat tonight I guess... lovely lol. Who ever thought I'd not want to eat!! Crazy. Oh well!! Hopefully it's a sign of the way I'll end up? I look forward to the next 6 weeks, seeing the scale go down, and then to eating some normal stuff and avoiding grains forever. And ever. Oh my. :-)
Monday, April 9, 2012
Round 2, take 2
Tomorrow I start again. I am still debating what to do, use the patches or not. I am thinking I will try with 2 and see how it goes, I really only plan to do 40 days any way, and am hoping I lose what I want to lose in that time. After that I will transition to a Primal/Paleo way of eating, and exercising, and drag kiddo along for the ride.
I picked up a few things for loading, not a tonne, I really only plan to load one day since I am technically on a PI, of less than 2 weeks, so I think 1 day should do it. We'll see I guess! If the patches don't work I will switch to drops pretty quickly, but hopefully they do work for me.
I have a few more videos on the way, and will be using them after HCG is done. I plan to walk, with kiddo and puppy, weather permitting, while in P2. I may do a bit of toning as well, depending on how I feel. And sleep, sleep will be important for sure. I should be sleeping now but for some reason I am not.
I am hoping to get a light alarm clock, it acts like sunrise, starting to brighten a half hour before you get up. I believe you can set music to it as well, I am hoping that the music starts when the light is full on, not as it starts to increase, but we'll see! I can use my clock radio as back up until I'm sure the new one works and wakes me up. Course I also have a kid who tends to get up early. He got up at 6 or 6:30 every day we were at my parent's for Easter. Crazy. I hope he sleeps better tomorrow, though not too well since he has daycare. He'll be thrilled because he gets to play outside, which he loves. I wish I loved it as much lol.
So tomorrow I will be eating eggs and cheese for breakfast, taking salad with avocado, salmon and olive oil dressing for lunch, cheesecake for a snack, some nuts and seeds to snack on as well. Then dinner is chicken thighs, cooked in coconut oil, with some veggies, and a piece of cake for dessert. I also have some chips and dip for evening snack, lots of fats and oils, nuts etc. Hopefully it works out! Hopefully the patches keep me from being hungry. Wednesday I start the VLCD and voila... 6 weeks to a healthy weight... right? :-)
I picked up a few things for loading, not a tonne, I really only plan to load one day since I am technically on a PI, of less than 2 weeks, so I think 1 day should do it. We'll see I guess! If the patches don't work I will switch to drops pretty quickly, but hopefully they do work for me.
I have a few more videos on the way, and will be using them after HCG is done. I plan to walk, with kiddo and puppy, weather permitting, while in P2. I may do a bit of toning as well, depending on how I feel. And sleep, sleep will be important for sure. I should be sleeping now but for some reason I am not.
I am hoping to get a light alarm clock, it acts like sunrise, starting to brighten a half hour before you get up. I believe you can set music to it as well, I am hoping that the music starts when the light is full on, not as it starts to increase, but we'll see! I can use my clock radio as back up until I'm sure the new one works and wakes me up. Course I also have a kid who tends to get up early. He got up at 6 or 6:30 every day we were at my parent's for Easter. Crazy. I hope he sleeps better tomorrow, though not too well since he has daycare. He'll be thrilled because he gets to play outside, which he loves. I wish I loved it as much lol.
So tomorrow I will be eating eggs and cheese for breakfast, taking salad with avocado, salmon and olive oil dressing for lunch, cheesecake for a snack, some nuts and seeds to snack on as well. Then dinner is chicken thighs, cooked in coconut oil, with some veggies, and a piece of cake for dessert. I also have some chips and dip for evening snack, lots of fats and oils, nuts etc. Hopefully it works out! Hopefully the patches keep me from being hungry. Wednesday I start the VLCD and voila... 6 weeks to a healthy weight... right? :-)
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Reading, Research and Sugar
My son and I are visiting my parent's for Easter. My dad is doing Atkins so is carb free, but my mom, the diabetic, still eats carbs because her blood sugar drops too low (I'd suggest she lower her does of insulin but what do I know). For Easter my dad got me some e-books, including Primal Blueprint and Paleo Solution. Both are similar and interesting, and flow into the reading I've done already by Taubes and Wheatbelly. Grains are bad. Now sayign that and living it are very different things. Our society is very much geared to including grains as part of life, and really it's hard to drop them. Not impossible of course, but certainly hard. I have been indulging in my last fling with these things as when I get back to home it will be back on HCG for a round (contrary to both primal and paleo ways of eating I'm sure) and then on to the rest of my life at a different way of eating.
For Easter my son got a lot of chocolate. And we are experiencing the effects of that now, he had more than a few little eggs this morning and is refusing to nap. Perhaps at just over 2 he doesn't really need a nap, but he certainly needs the rest and quiet time, so I'm leaving him to it, and will go get him in another half hour if he isn't asleep yet. An hour for mommy to clear her head lol, even with my parent's to help watch him he is still exhausting because of course only mommy will do in many cases.
My parent's are also a bit frustrating to me when it comes to how he eats. I did baby led weaning with him, so he ate what I ate, in stick shape and fashion, in as much quantity as he desired. He still eats what I eat in moderation, when I am doing HCG I will make him different veggies and offer him carbs with them (though I guess I don't really need to do that part). My parent's keep saying things like "finish your dinner or you can't go outside to play" and "eat all your chicken or you have to go to bed". It's more than a little annoying to me, because I simply don't buy into that. I have tried very hard to let my kids natural instincts with food lead his way, I do not force him to eat but he is offered what I am having, if he chooses not to eat, so be it! He makes up for it later, and if you average out his days, weeks, months, he is a very healthy little guy. I am not really sure what to do about my parent's, they mean well but they are so old fashioned in this that it's hard to deal with. I'm a single mom so its not like there is another person to back me up. We'll manage, I keep my mouth shut and when he's done eating, he's done and we carry on.
I have started taking him for walks with the dog, as in he walks with me instead of being pushed in the stroller. He will still get rides as I plan to restart jogging, and he won't keep up with that, and biking, which he's not big enough for yet. But we can go for a nice walk around the block all together and enjoy the sites and fresh air and all of it. I plan to continue that when we get home, and I am sure it will benefit us both.
I read Primal Blueprint and found it interesting, his ideas about exercise are good, I believe I can integrate some of that into my life, using videos because, well, I like videos. I have a wide variety and will use them as I like, without following a set schedule, attempting to do 2 toning workouts and 3 "cardio" workouts, plus one more intense workout every week, but if I don't get them all in that's ok too. Add in the leisurely walks and bike rides in summer, that should be a good start. The cardio I do is mostly Leslie Sansone, walking, and bits of jogging, it is as intense as you make it. I do sweat a bit but am not usually drenched unless I really push myself. Toning I have much more variety, and a couple on the way, so will enjoy them as well. I think mixing those up will be the best way to go, and then I can do whichever ones I feel like doing. Some are 20 minutes, and some are 30, a few are longer but they can be split up.
Considering I am a biologist by training, and my main interest lies in ecology, the interaction of nature, I find all of the talk of the way things were as hunter gatherers quite interesting. Once upon a time I wanted to go live in a cave and grow my own food, cut off from society. I have mostly given up on that dream but still hold onto the dream of a self sufficient life, growing food, using solar and wind power, collecting water in cisterns, having a well. Living surrounded by nature. The problem with all of that now of course is I am no longer alone, I have my son to worry about, and am hopeful of having another child some point sooner than later, so it becomes about them more than me. Maybe when I retire...
In any case. Reading and learning this weekend, eating too much of what I shouldn't, no scale to tell me how badly I've done. But back to work and losing as of Tuesday. I believe I will be able to hit "healthy" with one more round of HCG, and then on into it with primal/paleo/grain free eating. Life is looking up, and looking good.
For Easter my son got a lot of chocolate. And we are experiencing the effects of that now, he had more than a few little eggs this morning and is refusing to nap. Perhaps at just over 2 he doesn't really need a nap, but he certainly needs the rest and quiet time, so I'm leaving him to it, and will go get him in another half hour if he isn't asleep yet. An hour for mommy to clear her head lol, even with my parent's to help watch him he is still exhausting because of course only mommy will do in many cases.
My parent's are also a bit frustrating to me when it comes to how he eats. I did baby led weaning with him, so he ate what I ate, in stick shape and fashion, in as much quantity as he desired. He still eats what I eat in moderation, when I am doing HCG I will make him different veggies and offer him carbs with them (though I guess I don't really need to do that part). My parent's keep saying things like "finish your dinner or you can't go outside to play" and "eat all your chicken or you have to go to bed". It's more than a little annoying to me, because I simply don't buy into that. I have tried very hard to let my kids natural instincts with food lead his way, I do not force him to eat but he is offered what I am having, if he chooses not to eat, so be it! He makes up for it later, and if you average out his days, weeks, months, he is a very healthy little guy. I am not really sure what to do about my parent's, they mean well but they are so old fashioned in this that it's hard to deal with. I'm a single mom so its not like there is another person to back me up. We'll manage, I keep my mouth shut and when he's done eating, he's done and we carry on.
I have started taking him for walks with the dog, as in he walks with me instead of being pushed in the stroller. He will still get rides as I plan to restart jogging, and he won't keep up with that, and biking, which he's not big enough for yet. But we can go for a nice walk around the block all together and enjoy the sites and fresh air and all of it. I plan to continue that when we get home, and I am sure it will benefit us both.
I read Primal Blueprint and found it interesting, his ideas about exercise are good, I believe I can integrate some of that into my life, using videos because, well, I like videos. I have a wide variety and will use them as I like, without following a set schedule, attempting to do 2 toning workouts and 3 "cardio" workouts, plus one more intense workout every week, but if I don't get them all in that's ok too. Add in the leisurely walks and bike rides in summer, that should be a good start. The cardio I do is mostly Leslie Sansone, walking, and bits of jogging, it is as intense as you make it. I do sweat a bit but am not usually drenched unless I really push myself. Toning I have much more variety, and a couple on the way, so will enjoy them as well. I think mixing those up will be the best way to go, and then I can do whichever ones I feel like doing. Some are 20 minutes, and some are 30, a few are longer but they can be split up.
Considering I am a biologist by training, and my main interest lies in ecology, the interaction of nature, I find all of the talk of the way things were as hunter gatherers quite interesting. Once upon a time I wanted to go live in a cave and grow my own food, cut off from society. I have mostly given up on that dream but still hold onto the dream of a self sufficient life, growing food, using solar and wind power, collecting water in cisterns, having a well. Living surrounded by nature. The problem with all of that now of course is I am no longer alone, I have my son to worry about, and am hopeful of having another child some point sooner than later, so it becomes about them more than me. Maybe when I retire...
In any case. Reading and learning this weekend, eating too much of what I shouldn't, no scale to tell me how badly I've done. But back to work and losing as of Tuesday. I believe I will be able to hit "healthy" with one more round of HCG, and then on into it with primal/paleo/grain free eating. Life is looking up, and looking good.
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Going Primal, or Paleo, or Something
I'm on a break from HCG. The patches just do not work for me, so I'll be doing the drops again when I get back from Easter, until then I am going primal, or paleo? I guess it's primal since I'm including dairy. I'm dragging my son along with me, though of course he's too young to know it. He will get lots of fruits and vegetables, and some whole grains in small doses. And getting wheat out (pasta, bread, etc) will take a bit of effort as he loves both, but we can do this, and our health will be better for it. I wish I had done it sooner, so that by now it was second nature to both of us, but I can't change the past so will just keep going.
I didn't quite make it back to my lowest weight, but I'm ok with that. I know that I can get there if I want to. When I'm ready to. Soon. I will get to a healthy weight. And I am too impatient to do it with just the better way of eating, so I will do HCG again, and will succeed at it. I can take some hunger but not what I was experiencing on the patches. I guess they just don't work for me. Ah well, I know that the drops do, though they are of course much more of a pain to remember to take and to not eat or drink either side of.
Right now I have a cheesecake in the oven. I won't be able to eat it until morning of course, but that's ok, might make a good breakfast, all healthy stuff in it actually. It should be pretty tasty by morning, I hope! Costly for sure too. No carbs of course. I know that going forward I will need to limit these indulgences, even though they are low carb and made from good ingredients, they are still not getting back to the essence of primal, so while I know they will have a place, I want to get to a place where I don't need them.
I also ordered a few more workouts, like I need more that I don't do lol, but I will. I need to. I am wondering if I can do them with my son around, like when he's awake rather than waiting til he goes to bed or whatever. He is quite good at playing by himself, but he would likely try and do the workout with me, for the walking ones that isn't an issue, but some of the others would be too much for him. Of course seeing me workout would be good for him, to see that I do this. Might help him to do it too when he's older.
I didn't quite make it back to my lowest weight, but I'm ok with that. I know that I can get there if I want to. When I'm ready to. Soon. I will get to a healthy weight. And I am too impatient to do it with just the better way of eating, so I will do HCG again, and will succeed at it. I can take some hunger but not what I was experiencing on the patches. I guess they just don't work for me. Ah well, I know that the drops do, though they are of course much more of a pain to remember to take and to not eat or drink either side of.
Right now I have a cheesecake in the oven. I won't be able to eat it until morning of course, but that's ok, might make a good breakfast, all healthy stuff in it actually. It should be pretty tasty by morning, I hope! Costly for sure too. No carbs of course. I know that going forward I will need to limit these indulgences, even though they are low carb and made from good ingredients, they are still not getting back to the essence of primal, so while I know they will have a place, I want to get to a place where I don't need them.
I also ordered a few more workouts, like I need more that I don't do lol, but I will. I need to. I am wondering if I can do them with my son around, like when he's awake rather than waiting til he goes to bed or whatever. He is quite good at playing by himself, but he would likely try and do the workout with me, for the walking ones that isn't an issue, but some of the others would be too much for him. Of course seeing me workout would be good for him, to see that I do this. Might help him to do it too when he's older.
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